Look at Me

It's National Eating Disorders Awareness week. And I thought I was going to want to focus on NEDA and how important it is to get help. Because sometimes that first step can be the hardest. But that's not where I am right now. As of lately, my biggest struggle has been my own self-perception and body image, and not allowing a negative attitude result in engaging in symptoms. I have the whole week to write about other things that are important to me if I so desire, but I wanted to start off by sharing this video.

Everybody knows Somebody. That's the slogan for this years NEDA week. And it's so true. With an estimated 30 million people suffering (in the United States alone), everybody knows somebody. Everybody that knows me knows somebody. So I think it's important to not only spread awareness, but to also spread positivity, encouragement, acceptance. Because no one deserves to hate themselves. No one deserves to think that they are not worthy of support, love, food. No one deserves to think that they're not good enough.

Talking about my eating disorder with people other than my therapist is still something I really struggle with. I don't talk about it. I clam up when people ask me about it. And I still have a really hard time reaching out when I need help or support. My best friend is one of the few people outside of my family and recovery group that know about my eating disorder. I'm sure other people have had their suspicions, but I can count on one hand the amount of people that I have actually told. So, when my friend sent me this video, it was a reinforcement. It was her way of telling me that she's there for me, that she cares about me, that she hates seeing me upset. That she loves me. That she thinks I'm enough.

And that was the message that I wanted to talk about today. That just as we are in this exact moment, we are enough. I am enough.


Look at Me. Spoken word and dance come to life on the big screen with a short film on the topic of eating disorders and the power of acceptance.
Look at Me